i called you my babies
all four of you
to me, life began in that petri dish
when the sperm fertilized the egg
how could it not?
...when i want this as much as i do
what it would be like
to feel you kick
and bring you into the world
to hold you
and peer into your eyes
to kiss your cheeks
and watch you wiggle your toes
to love you.
that's what i dreamed of
i called you my babies
all four of you
when they told us we have four fertilized eggs
i thought you'd all survive
how could i not?
...when i want this as much as i do
what it would be like
to be your mom
and watch brian become a father
to introduce you to our families
and see their eyes light up with joy
to finally join the 'mom' club
and stop being so sad all the time
to love you.
that's what i dreamed of
i called you my babies
all four of you
i felt lighter, full of hope
and i whispered to myself 'maybe this time'
how could i not?
....when i want this as much as i do
what it would be like
to teach you about Jesus
and His grace and love
to hold your hand
as you write your own story
to build this family
that i've longed for
all my life
to love you.
–all four of you–
that's what i dreamed of